i love to write when things go wrong - it helps distract my thoughts. pouring letters into words: t's with crosses, i's with dots. but i cant write without a reason, some type of determination. love, life, and even death give me inspirtation.
How do you do it? Why won't you let me write?
I used to manufacture words but I have lost my plight.
I can't write about love, I can't write about how you make me feel.
No more poems of nonsense and bliss, I can't put into words whats real.
You locked up my mind - my thoughts won't flow down to my hand.
Im a message in a bottle, lost beneath the sand.
Day and night have no distinction, the sun and stars are both above
I feel backwards, upside-down...
I think I fell in love.
though he brought my lots of laughter - most the time i cried
never knowing how to leave... inside  i just died
the light in my had shrunk so small that in my soul was doubt
my heart had to build a wall so that my light would not go out
the love that i once felt had diminished into hate
a hate for anyone who thought that part of me should change
the happiness that filled my eyes was gone, i thought for good
but then you came and did what i thought no one ever could
you made me laugh until i cried but only tears of joy
still, i was weary of you - because you were a boy
the amazing strength in your heart was tearing down my wall
i felt my heart warming up as the flame inside grew tall
the hate that had replaced my love had cursed my heart and mind
then you softly told me how i used to be so kind
i had found my happiness, my eyes a brighter shade of blue
all because of the love that i found inside of you
i dont want to talk right now - i want everybody gone
i need some time all to myself - i need some time alone
time to think... to hash things out...
time to wipe away my tears...
just some time to stop and reminisce on some of my younger years
i need a place to fly to, a place to just be blue
i need to get this off my chest and stay away from you
i hate it when you think you know exactly what i need
to cut myself and let the pain leave me as i bleed
is what i want to do sometimes to make it go away
to drain every ounce of hurt ive felt but i wont so it must stay
welling up inside of me for years on top of years
the only way it can escape is falling with my tears